Yesterday

11:12 AM

For those of you who may have started reading my blog recently, you may wonder why there are no posts on Sundays, or maybe you haven’t noticed because I have not been posting on a regular enough basis. Anyway, I don’t write blog posts on Sundays because we usually don’t turn on the TV or computer on Sundays. We do this to honor the Lord’s Day, and to encourage ourselves to spend quality time with our family.

Yesterday, I stayed home from church because I felt so irritated with every little thing that I was afraid I would start yelling at my sibling or even people in the church. No, this is not my normal state of being, nor do I like staying home from church. In fact, I was very mad at myself for not being able to get a handle on my emotions. This is not normal for me, even when I feel irritated I can usually get a grip on it, but I just couldn’t seem to yesterday.

I spent a long time having my own private worship service and prayed that God would calm my heart. It helped some, but I still could not shake that feeling, and so I did something that I rarely do on a Sunday - I watched a movie. Sometimes when I am having a really hard time, getting my mind off the issue or feelings for a little bit helps me. By the middle of the movie, I realized why I had felt so irritated that morning - I started to run a fever.

Okay, now you all know one of my biggest weak spots: I have a hard time being a good person when I am sick. It is something that I have struggled with and am still working on. I am so thankful that I serve a God who will love and forgive his children no matter how many times they make the same stupid mistakes, aren’t you?

Have a great day everyone!

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3 comments

  1. Thanks for the reminder, Sarah! I'm the sickest I've been in awhile right now, and although I don't think I've been snappy or irritated at anyone, what I was thinking inside probably wasn't too great. Just our thoughts and feelings can lead to bad moods, so we've gotta be careful with that.

    ~Arianna~

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  2. Sorry to hear you are still feeling bad. I understand what you mean about having a bad attitude before you go to church. Sometimes, I do too. It can be tough especially because I don't really have any friends my own age that attend my church and so I can't get encouragement and uplifting from friends. For the most part, I just kind of have to set it aside and focus on other things until it passes. I don't get upset or angery very easily, but sometimes it seems just like what you described. The littlest things will annoy me. What's worse is that most of the time when this happens I can't understand why I am upset. I know that what I am upset about isn't anything at all, but it still bugs me. Usually I find out that it was mood swings due to being a girl... If you know what I mean. So, I understand how you feel. Just hold in there! I hope you feel better soon and that you stop being sick!

    God Bless!
    Jessica

    P.S.
    I will make sure to pray for you tonight!

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  3. Hi Sarah! I am so sorry you are not feeling well! I understand about having a bad attitude. This is something that I struggle with as well. I am often grumpy when I do not eat enough of the right kinds of foods or skip out on my vitamins. I Have had a Sunday like the one you described as well. I just was so filled with anger (over something not important)! Yes, It is wonderful that we are blessed with a Father who knows us and forgives us. Also with family who loves us and forgives us as well! =;) I hope the rest of your week goes better!

    Blessings!
    ~Rachel~

    P.S. - Thank you for being so open. I know it is so hard for me to be open and admit my faults. Especially now that we have a blog! =:) I just really appreciated it.

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