This month has been an emotional roller-coaster, most of it of my own making. There were days that I was excited that I had made it 30 years, and there were a lot of days I felt like curling in a ball and crying. There was something about the big three-zero birthday that had me. I never thought I would get to this age without a family of my own. At the same time, I saw so many things that God needed to change in me, I kinda wondered how I had any friends and why my family put up with me.
I took a week off for my birthday and spent a lot of time thinking, praying, as well as chilling and having fun. In this week off, God has brought me not only to a place of great peace but to a point that today was a day of great rejoicing for me.
We all have expectations in life. I’m no different. Now, I wasn’t one of those who had a life plan, but I did have ideas. As is often the case, God had plans for me that were very different than my ideas. While those plans are for my good, they don’t necessarily feel good. However, we all know there are many things that feel good that aren’t good for us. We can’t live on sugar and other junk food. Exercises don’t feel good a lot of the time, but they achieve a result that is good.
There is so much that God has been teaching me, it can’t all fit into this post. However, I will say that I’m so grateful for the thirty years that God has given me. As I look ahead, I have no idea what He has in store for me. I do know that I can hold on to hope because it will be for my good and for his glory.
Here is a song I’ve been listening to a lot this past week.
