A Rainbow
4:00 AM
"So, why has Sarah been so quiet of late?"
A very good question my friends and one for which there is a very good, beautiful gift-from-God answer. But, because I am a storyteller, I of course am not going to just blurt it out, but tell you the story.
Before Scott and I got married, we both knew we wanted children. We also knew we didn't want to wait long to have them. We had been married just over three months when I got a positive pregnancy test, but only a couple of days later, I lost the baby. It was an early loss that was hard, in a way, but it also didn't even feel real.
A couple of months later, another pink line told us we were expecting again. We eagerly showed up to our first prenatal appointment, only to be told "I'm so sorry". The loss was both emotionally and physically very draining and it took months for me to feel normal again.
In early 2024, when we found out we were expecting again, we wanted to be hopeful, but it was hard. God led us to a wonderful OB who helped us navigate through a scare... and another loss. A battery of tests turned nothing of note wrong. I honestly was ready to put aside the dream of having kids. The losses were hard on me and our families.
God had other plans.
In March, I got another positive test. Well, actually, two of them because I needed to see the results twice. We asked our families and church friends to start praying (as we had for the last pregnancies as well). None of my other babies had lived past six weeks. So when I started bleeding at six weeks I knew what was happening. I called the OB on duty and made arrangements to go in the next morning to confirm what I knew to be happening.
My friends, you know how the Bible speaks of the peace that surpasses all understanding? That is what I felt. I was sad and anxious, yes, but I knew God held me, my little one, and the future in His hands.
The moment we saw the baby on the screen I burst into tears because I could see so clearly something I had never seen in any sonogram before: a little heart beating. It was too early to hear it but we could see it.
We heard it the next week.
The following week, the baby was wiggling around like crazy. They finally felt confident enough to move to a more normal schedule of appointments. Last week, I officially entered the second trimester and we saw our little one grown, moving, and healthy.
And we are humbled.
This isn't always how God chooses to answer. Many couples who long for a child can't ever conceive. Some deal with loss after loss and never hear anything other than "I'm so sorry." And of course, we aren't guaranteed a favorable outcome now. While the risk of miscarriage drops dramatically in the second trimester, that doesn't mean it can't happen.
I thank you for your prayers. I hope to give y'all more updates about my life and our little one soon
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7 comments
I'm so happy for you, Sarah! And I'll be praying for you guys and Baby!
ReplyDeleteThank you!
DeleteHow exciting and also stressful - thank you for sharing. Praying for you, your family, and everyone working with you!
ReplyDeleteSo so happy for y’all!! 🩷🫶🏼
ReplyDeletePraying for you❤❤
ReplyDeleteI am so delighted for you and Scott! I will pray for safety for you and the little one!
ReplyDeleteOh, Sarah! Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI was secretly wondering if the reason you were sick a few weeks ago was because you were pregnant. And to know that it's real, wow!
I can only imagine the fears you and Scott faced and still do. Please know you're all in my prayers. I'm so thankful that baby is well and I pray that continues.
Many blessings to you!
Valentine