After feeling like I could never measure up to God's standards in my youth, I was so freed when I was reintroduced to the concepts of God's grace and love. Nothing I did or didn't do would make him love me any more or less. His grace not only covered my sin before I was saved, but also after. However, in the last couple of years, I have gotten far to comfortable in my faith. It started just as a much needed time of rest after the upheaval of changed in my thinking, but quickly became a comfortable spot that I would not budge from. If God loved me, what was the point in worrying about my sins?
In the last few months, God has used the Bible and people around me to remind me of a tension. A tension that all Christians must live with, and I think struggle with, until we are in heaven. We do live under grace and nothing we do will change the love the Father has for us. However, as Paul said, we should not keep sinning so that grace may abound.
Each of us has different sins we struggle with. I struggle with the ugly sins of pride, being judgmental, and hardheartedness. These sins may not sound as bad as some of the sins that you normally hear people confessing, but the Church at large deems these acceptable sins. God loves me despite these awful sins, but He does want me to free me from them. Therefore, I need to be on my guard, and when I do sin, I need to being it before God, confess, and ask for his help.
I am finding that most sins are because I don’t trust God with something. I don’t trust Him to deal with a person or work in their lives, so I take it on myself. I don’t trust His timing for my projects, so I try to force my agenda into His plans.
I refuse to be complacent about my sins any longer. I will rest in my Father’s love, while doing battle with the sins that have invaded my life. I will not be complacent any longer.